Cutting the wire...

I find it amusing, the fact that we behave (and portray ourselves) differently with different sets of people. We take on different roles based on our interest, our image in a specific circle, the situation or (mostly) on the guidelines of our beloved society. Picturing my well-mannered father sitting and cursing with his college friends brings on a wide grin. But all this multiple-personality role-play is something we take in our stride, it is something we grin and bear or we simply do not play at all. What all of this does not do is tear you apart. But there is something that does tear you apart, makes you numb, creates illusions, and causes nightmares…

And that is when your heart and your mind are completely out of sync.

In sync is good, in sync is awesome. In sync makes all decisions so easy and for someone with a strict no-regrets policy, in sync makes life a bed of roses. And when they do behave a little out of tune, I have found it better to follow the heart. After all, it controls the damn emotions and those are the main culprits which cause regrets over things that you really had no control over. A few thousand bucks are nothing compared to a happy day spend with friends and family. Even a hundred thousand bucks… Nah, here the mind takes control!

So you either follow your heart or your mind (rarely in my case) or both of them and life is not so bad. But what when the “completely” out of sync scenario plays out? It’s not pretty to say the least.

Mind it, it won’t really make a difference either ways and regrets would not haunt forever but the equal pull from both sides does make you go through hell until a decision is made and acted upon. The acted upon part being more important as you keep swinging between decisions till it is done with. External factors like parents or wife can help or worsen the situation. Hmmm, not really, coz you agree with them one moment, disagree in the next.

The only solution I guess is to close your eyes and cut the red wire, either the bomb will go off or won’t. Either ways, you pick up your baggage and carry on, in this life or beyond.

Dabas